So because we are kinda poor these days, we do not currently have internet at our place, which isn't too big of an inconvenience, except when it is. For example, it has become quite a problem on nights when I need the internet for homework (which is often) and it is too late to go to the library or other places that so kindly host free Wi-fi! But that is a different story, entirely.
Anyway, with finals currently taking place this week, and the library being super full, I have found a new place to study and work! Hidden away behind the many shelves of books and magazines, there is a cute little Seattle's Best Coffee cafe in Borders. I have found this such place bring great comfort in reading and working there. The atmosphere is just so cozy! I usually warm up with a hot chocolate, or chai latte and can stay for hours. (And they constantly play Christmas music, which I love!) Is this sad? Perhaps.
When I'm here, I spend about 5 hours on average, during which I see plenty people coming in and out. These people range in all different races, ages and styles. They all seem, for the most part, like people I would like to get to know. With my recent experience with The Zoo story, combined with sitting in the coffeehouse has made me think about why we isolate ourselves in public. Why do we put up our guards and keep our distance from strangers? Are there relationships and experiences we are opting out of because we don't want to step outside of our comfort zone? And what could we be bringing to other people by simply offering a smile and small conversation?
I think this is something I would really like to work on personally. Maybe this could be my New Year's resolution for 2010: To allow myself to be more comfortable engaging with people I do not know. Because when you think about it, all of our current friends and family members were at one time strangers.

In case you weren't aware of my absent-mindedness...

I have a little update:

I locked my keys in my car again last week. 

That makes me locking myself out of things (ie. car, house, etc) THREE times in the past three months!

my love and life for the past couple months

I have successfully finished directing my first play! It is a pretty good feeling, I'm not going to lie. The process was pretty exhausting both emotionally and time-wise. (hence why I haven't blogged in a month!) But through this process I have learned so much about myself as an artist and person, and how
"...sometimes it's necessary to go a long distance out of the way in order to come back a short distance correctly."  

After each show, there was a talk back session. As people told what they saw in the show and how it affected them I was so surprised at how different each person's experience was. (This is one of my greatest loves with art and theater: There is no one correct answer.) Listening to their thoughts and responses about the show, was when I really felt success. I hope that their exposure with the play has become a learning experience. I just want to share a quote from the playwright himself:

"One must let the play happen to one; one must let the mind loose to respond as it will, to receive impressions, to sense rather than know, to gather rather than immediately understand." 

-Edward Albee